As you know
our Goober has been going through lots of tough things lately. Most of
them revolving around physical changes and a maturing phase where he
doesn't know if he is ready to laugh or cry. He point blank looked at me
in the van yesterday and said "Does my mom do drugs? Is she a
christian? Does she still remember me? Is she in jail? Do not lie to me
mom.". That sparked a long tearful conversation and lots of reflection
for Goober as he is starting to put the puzzle together. He also shared
how it seemed like she wanted Baby Boy but not him. How do you tell your
10 year old that yes, she voluntarily gave you up but she did in fact
try to keep her 6th child, Baby Boy? Those questions are why I am so
glad that we are in counseling. Its such a safe place for us all to
forgive and heal and talk. Its where Goober feels like he can finally
talk about his birth mom..not sure why he doesn't at home just yet but
thats for him to decide. He also tells the counselor the funniest
things...
1. Adam is the Facilities Director at our school
which means he does a little bit of everything...like, crawl through the
ceiling, drop down into a 1st grade classroom and fix the doorhandle so
that the class and teacher locked inside are free :). Or take apart
door handles for teachers after they have jammed their key in it for the
10th time. Or hang up bulletin boards for the female teachers who
honestly can't do it themselves...those are all not in his job
description but he is happy to do it. Therefore, he gets TONS of baked
good and food from sweet ladies who want to say thank you. Some days he
will eat that instead of the lunch I pack him. Well Goober told our
counselor that it makes him upset when "my dad gets food from all these
other women and then he doesnt' eat what my mom packed him and she gets
upset because she is trying to help us be healthy". That took some
explaining.
2. He also told her that the sermon our pastor
preached this past Sunday was good for his mom and dad to hear since we
needed to forgive one another from a fight we had on Saturday night :).
3. He also told her that I always ask him about his
birthmom but Dad never does. When she said why, he said " my mom always
beats him to it".
There have been some other sweet memories in our home lately. I'll share one from each kiddo.
Baby
Boy-When I tuck him in like a "BUHRITO" at night he loves to sing along
with me to his favorite night night song. He tries to sing it in the
same octave as me and he forms his little mouth so perfectly trying to
make the words stretch longer ;). "Lay down my dear children, Lay down
and take your rest, Won't you lay your head upon your Savior's breast? I
love you, oh but Jesus loves you the best, and I bid you Good night,
Good Night, Good night". We give kisses in between each good night and
we get quieter so that by the last good night we are whispering to each
other.
Ribbit-We had a great time at a local Christmas
Fest...got tons of candy from a parade where Anna and Elsa were
featured, played on bouncehouses and slides, made christmas crafts, saw
Santa and reindeer, ate cookies and hot chocolate, danced to christmas
music and then rode in a horse drawn carriage. As we were riding she
said " hey momma, I know what this is like" and she sang "oh what fun it
is to ride in a ONE HORSE OPEN SLEIGH"...she was so proud of herself!
On the way home she said "mommy, I am going to miss you when I am grown
up". I said " well you can live right beside me and then we won't miss
each other" and just like she has heard her Daddy and I say several
times she responded with " but what if God tells me to move all the way
to Alabama?".
Goober- Goober decided to draw out a "Dream
House" for both Adam and I two nights ago. Mine had a weight room ;),
track, large kitchen and then an indoor basketball and baseball field.
When I asked why? he said "because you don't like to be cold so this way
you can watch me play inside!" This boys knows his momma! To make it
even sweeter after we looked at our dream houses Adam ended the
conversation but reminding Goob that the home we are in is our dream
house because that is where our family is :)
Figured out photos....Making silly faces to go along with our silly face pancakes for breakfast.
Out for an early morning cold run with my little man, who said hello to every dog and tree we passed.
Goobers Veterans Day Performance
Mideveal Times Field Trip with Goober
We had a great time and our yellow knight won!!!!
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